mm...a day spent at PS...actually bout 8 hrs? hah...to conclude: 2 whopper meals, 1 "i-robot" movie (nt bad movie actually..go catch it guys! pretty cool..will smith aint tt bad after all..) ten bucks of borrowed cash on arcade.....haha..a "guy" day out...concentrated entertainment, loads and lots of bullshit and mindless toking and loads of money burned....dun noe abt u gals though...haha...

i need to talk..the cloud tt has shrouded my sight and judgement has been needling me for some time...i need a light to show me the way..."piaa piaa headlights guys? lol" wandering lost chap i am...just walking down the path tt my feelings lead me too...when the first gun just fired...all tt rational thinking and gung-ho bullshit just went out of the window..many a times help ppl i had...maybe its time for the other way round? i wish this nt be a misery for happier times had been shared in the past....but to indulge in self-happiness where ethics are in questions...raises an eyebrow doesnt it? 0_o

to love is to hate...so which is correct? for both are inter-linked and involve strong emotions and feelings....which just leaves the nut confused and lost...
irritating isnt it? at times i wonder why i think so much...then it all comes rushing to my head like a "swoosh" of a rocket (lol melodramatic) or maybe just like a blink of an eye...i do think in images...yes ppl...pictures and images like a photo album float frequently in my head...hmm..maybe tts y i can only remember faces...lol..and to think i hav such a small head...haha...

well..i like to thank the ppl tt helped me up on my own 2 feet with no less amt of dust on me ready to be dusted off...

first of..thnks so much my lil sis! ya been a great listener with advice being thrown at me to boot...(at times literally..haha)...nv knew u cld be this great lady underneath tt quirkyness in u...u sure are unique with all tt crazy childhood and mad thoughts.... dunch noe wat i wld do if u werent around to defuse the situation..or maybe its becos ya just like me..we shld all go be police mediators...lolx

secondly..the chaps and babes of ohana...u guys just dunt noe hw to stop showing concern nw cldnt u?? haha...its ppl like u guys tt i will always hav a safety net to fall on, a human arm bridge when i fall backwards from a table..hax...i dunch noe where i stand within this family..but i know one thing's right...tt i belong in the family...tts gd enough..;)

thirdly..well..there isnt realie anibody in mind lar...so yea..i wld just credit it to ani other ppl tt helped me in a way or another....

so yea..here i come to the end of my prize acceptence speech...thnkew all for listening and wld u pls exit the premises cos...cos...well its over isnt it???

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Late Goodbye
in our headlights, staring, bleak, beer cans, deer's eyes
on the asphalt underneath, our crushed plans and my lies
lonely street signs, powerlines, they keep on flashing, flashing by

and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye, such a late goodbye
and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye

your breath hot upon my cheek, and we crossed, that line
you made me strong when I was feeling weak, and we crossed, that one time
screaming stop signs, staring wild eyes, keep on flashing, flashing by

and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye, such a late goodbye
and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye

the devil grins from ear to ear when he sees the hand he's dealt us
points at your flaming hair, and then we're playing hide and seek
I can't breathe easy here, less our trail's gone cold behind us
till' in the john mirror you stare at yourself grown old and weak

and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye, such a late goodbye...

by: poets of the fall

reallie nice song...taken off the max payne2 game...haha..

Well...just saw the fireworks for ndp preview...yes my hse is able to see them........haha..and yes..every year wld be a free fireworks show 3 times....F-16 afterburners cld be heard and felt as well...hax...
i reallie need a cca...squash? or maybe guitar club...lol....oh wait...its starting again!
pretty things fireworks...although we dont hav stuff like a dragon-formed firework flying down or sumthing(think lotr)...those bright colourful balls of light sure are nice........i do like the "rain-like" ones.....my fav! hehx...
well..everything has been cleared up...still best of frens we are......scold me..say i am stupid for nt letting go.....wateva~
i am fine with the way things are apparently.....and john? i am glad she finally saw light in ur relationship....compromise is between 2 ppl...not 1...just remember tt and u wld do fine.....;)
8 o'clock on a sat evening...and where i am? at home......-_-
i just realised i lead a pretty darn boring life......i need a new obession tt wld keep me busy for the wkends.....ani ideaS? haha......
 

Cougar/Mountain Lion/Puma ~ The Puma spirit
represents power, grace and stealth in
darkness, but its real power lies in the
silence of its eerie, unblinking stare that
seems to bore deep into one's soul.  This
teaching can help us to discover the benefits
of concentration, deep contemplation and
prayer.  As we peer into the darkness of the
unknown to feel its power, we can be guided by
our puma friend to the light on the other side.
The puma is extremely quiet during the hunt.
It knows when to be invisible and when to make
its awesome presence known.  Silence is its
sword and power.  Silence is highly respected
among American Indians and is seen as a holy
state of consciousness as we quietly behold the
grace and glory of the Creator.  It is said
that silence speaks words of the Great Mystery.
When the student is ready, the puma teacher may
bring knowledge of this powerful medicine.Cougar/Mountain Lion/Puma's Wisdom Includes:

Using leadership power wisely and without ego
Balancing power, intention, strength
Gaining self-confidence
Freedom from guilt
Cunning

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its the 2nd week of sch...so far so gd i must say..though glimspes of assignments are just beyond the horizon....bummer~ there goes my hol mood....
its been a week since its over...conflicting issues i am facing inside...part of me is still close..but the other part keeps questioning my actions...(me thinking: "since its over..wat for?") but being me..(cld nv hurt anione)
well..as ppl tell me.."i am still young"...haha..then y does a small ache appear from time to time?? y do i cry out silently inside? why does a part of me feel so empty inside...like the spark just went fizzz.....*shrugs*
part of life? try unforseen circumstances and choices.....situations tt i cant even control regardless of how much pleads and persuasion tt i pour out...it was as if the die was cast and all was needed was a loudhailer...3/4 of me wanted to fight...fight like i nv did before...to keep hacking and slashing till i reach my goal...my goal of reunification....but a small but never-leaving feeling always tell me tt its senseless...even if i wanted so much to fight..the other party wld nt like it....

Y isit tt i am always thinking abt the other DAMNM ppl!!! fuck fuck fuck!


The absence of love is the most abject pain.
-Herr Lipp

well..a walkthrough of the modules i am taking...lets start with Digi sound and video! tt class is so much bloody fun! as it suggest...editing sounds...adding echoes, vibras, extra pitches so tt it becomes a chipmunk voice! lol...shall hav fun in tt module i think...then we hav scriptwriting...yessir..scriptwriting..and guess wat! my teacher is the chap whu did PCK...UNDER ONE ROOF...WAR DIARYS..and all tt great but sumtimes mediacore tcs5 productions! amazing stuff tt guy...uber experience with over 20 yrs in tcs....as the guys wld call it..GOSU....lol..well..i am suppose to bring sumthing sentimental to class nxt wk...just dun noe wat to bring..i am nt the guy tt keeps stuff at home and just reminises abt them..mabbie i wld just bring a photo of my remote control car...or tt eagle my grandpa gave me...sorrie if i only have toys...i was a semi-spoilt child...having toys but nv new ones..ha...ah well..time to head down to popular and get my fav writing pen cos tts wat scriptwriting is abt! pilot G2! here i come!

well..wed was a day at the airport..haha...just finished soccer and met up with mok..and so we decided tt our dinner venue was at the airport..yes ppl...2 lonely guys went from yio chu kang to changi airport...via mrt of course...i never knew the airport was so much fun! i was like literally shown passageways and "TTFF"(touch touch feel feel) places at the viewing mall...did u know u cld walk thru the offices of the diff airlines from t1 to t2?? and the bloody corridor was just like the matrix where the keymaker had all the keys to the different doors....exactly the same...so many doors in one long corridor..hahaha...one of this days we will bring whuever is interested...
nv knew changi to be a nice place to go and destress...its so quiet and nice...just sit there and think through the night...tts of course if u dont freeze to death first...
oh yes! me and mok also thought of a script for me to do...haha...fast arent we?
well..its bout the aspiring sec3 gal whu helps out at her mum's stall at the airport cafeteria....lol...dun ask me...(we did see a ITE gal there though...helping out)
Well mok..i hope ur aspiring entreupeurner business plan does work! i would very much like to eat fish and chips wrapped in newspaper and with vineger sprinkled over it....the blokes whu went britain wld know this...its damn nice i tell u...

gosh..such a long entry..well..later's class at 1 is cinematography...i hope its fun...from the looks of things..everything is fun! looks like sch isnt tt bad after all...;)

Well...a tribute to Marlon Brando...one of the greatest actors ever...


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godfather1 

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godfather3 

Well...new semester..new sch year....finally year2 alreadi! so darn glad...no more a small lil` freshie..haha nw WE are in charge...muahaha...mm..entirely new stuff i am learning nw...stuff like TV graphics, sound editing, cinematography and scriptwriting...yes folks...its time to spin yarns and stories once again..so if u guys got ani great stories to tell...be it bullshit or real..jus fill me in yar?? and i might just make ur story into a production! isnt tt greaT?? though u gotta wait till like 15 wks later...haha...well i got 2 weeks b4 i write my first script..so guys? ani stories?? just tell me via messenger...;) my email is up there on the right...yeap..

well..we are sumwat closer after the breakup...seems like shes more free after nt being in a relationship cos it "weighs" her down and gives her social pressure...*shrugs* dont look at me! i am still trying to understand tt part...anihows...my feelings are still as strong...love u darl!

realised ohana has just been lowered undergrd with no noise made...its been ages since i seen ani of the ohanians...even the guys! where hav u all been? 0_o



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well...its been a boring day so far...with me still pondering over to watch tonite's soccer outside or at home..haha...ah well..here is the link to my sch work pics...enjoy!

mmm....SDN ORIENTATION 2004 is officially over!!!!! it was soooo much fun!
all tt planning finally was finally realised and done out! felt soo appreciated and accomplished..and one more thing..my grp won the best CHEER!!! WHOOO...GRP 12 ROCKS!!!!!!!!! haha...comparing tt they were extremely quiet on the first dae??
i shouted and cajoled and buddied and threatened and never gave up and shouted EVEN more till voice was left with nuthing....but it was worth it in the end.....:D

took a cab home on fri nite with my fren...and the taxi driver was telling me abt my life...yes...with jus one glance at my actual face and the rest looking at me from the rear mirror....Amazing stuff reallie! told me tt i was patient..o_0, cld be bullied reallie badly and i wldnt get angry at all..told me tt my IQ was high and i shld be in a science course doing scientific research! i was like 0_0??? hax...mabbie its true i dunno...then he told me 2 things tt made me believe him...he touched tt i had a problem with one of my parents (which is true...mum..though he guessed "dad") and i suffer from "cold" illness...which is also true.....wonderful stuff man...jus looking at my face.....

it seems tt the offcial term "relationship" has just been erased outta my life....though relations with her are still as strong and vice-versa...constant "branding" is sumthing tt she doesnt like.....hw do i feel?? a tinge of sadness yet kinda happy for her...being the social butterfly tt she is...never resting on one flower.....i loved u...i still do..........