realisation burst through my head like the crashing of the bowling ball into 10 pins........it never felt so clear before...(partly due to the hair cut..:P) i am sorrie i ever doubted u...ur actions...ur reactions....i am sorrie i ever caused u agonising pain or regrets.......my feet are rooted firmly to the rocking and tubulerlanic boat tt is cresting the open sea....it shall always stand firm over ani tribulations tt i may face....heh..like wat i said in secondary sch which the teacher wanted us to sae wat we resembled..."i am a thin metal pole....no matter how thin or fragile it may look...i will always be there to support or help ppl in times of need"....peeps of cat high may remember this......

todae is juz another trip down memory lane.....playing badminton with my peeps in sch reminded me of my childhood playtime where ani grass plot or area with a opening(no ceiling) wld suffice as the court with the cover of the badminton racket as the improvised net......those carefree and simple daes where homework waz never a bother or always pushed aside for more entertainment...be it tv or reading....yes i did read when i waz a kid....i still do......
waz coming back home when i saw my neighbour's kid playing at the playgrd...so sat down with my neighbour...(uncle) and talked....abt life....future and money....hmm....i realized the kid looked alot like me when i waz young...and the playing style waz the same too! always playing in the sand and sliding down the huge slide.....yes it waz a sand filled playgrd previously.....nw its all rubberized..........sighz......all my fav haunts and areas are juz slowly disappearing like each passing cloud....


Beatles: In My Life

There are places I'll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All this places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more
In my life-- I love you more

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Your first full name
Your personality rates a	9
your best quality is	deep inside ur a good person
your worst quality is	nothing bad i can see...
this is because	you were born this way
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todae waz fun....and nice...:)
though nt much stuff waz said...the company waz so good it made me forget all my worries....*smiles*

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	Spiritual Advancement
In a survival situation, you:	Run like hell
Your hidden talent is:	Courage
Your gift is:	Ability to acquire wealth
In groups, you:	Blend in
Your best quality is:	Your protectiveness
Your weakness is:	Your jealous nature
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What Color Is Your Aura?

We don't need a psychic to tell us that you're giving off a Gold vibe. You couldn't ask for a better color — a glistening gold aura is as good as it gets. A lively blend of yellow and orange, gold people are happy, playful, energetic, sensitive, and generous. Always up for adventure, you'd give a friend in need the shirt off your back. You're spiritual, too — all those halos in old paintings aren't colored gold by coincidence. Almost childlike in the carefree, joyful way you live your life, you're popular and outgoing with your large circle of friends. Chances are you're so full of light and energy that you sometimes find it hard to sit still and chill out. Instead, you're constantly looking for excitement, no matter how risky or impulsive the occasion. Happy-go-lucky and always laughing, you truly are as good as gold.


The 5-Factor IPIP Personality Test

Alvin, your most unique quality is that you're unusually Inspirational

You inspire others around you with your creative energy and thirst for new experiences. You are exceptionally curious and aren't afraid of learning new things — which is probably because you tend to focus on the potential positive outcome of any experience rather than dwelling on the potential negatives. You are a true explorer in the word. You want to understand and experience it all, and you're especially open to new feelings and ideas. Compared to others who are open, you are unusually imaginative. Only 1.8% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths.



*smiles*...hw true...tickle reallie is gd...test and all are mostly accurate and right to the dot...guess all tt showing of "PHD certified" ribbons around the webby is justified...haha....had a nice time seating down watching Yanni in concert DVD with my dad while having a beer each....we were juz toking abt music during the show and i waz actually having a gd time....its been a long time since i done anithing liddat with my dad...an one on one thing.....rather rewarding...:)

juz embarked and stepped into a new direction last night....alot of truthful and sincere stuff waz said over the phone....conflicting feelings are juz messed up like tt intricate but delicate lil`porcelain vase broken on the floor.....*shakes head* guess i am juz a noob at stuff like tt...lala..i guess there's never enough to learn huh..... and i am supposed to be doin work....haha..

*smiles* more work needed to be done...slp wld nt be an option for the nxt 3 wks..sighz........


The Influence of Birth Order

Alvin, your position as youngest child shows most strongly in your social skills.

Similar to other youngest children, you are probably easygoing and charming. Because you were the youngest in the family, your natural survival instinct was to seek protection from older members of your family. To accomplish this, you learned some important skills. First, you leaned not to be shy about openly expressing your affection and love. In addition, you became adept at reading how people feel about you. You're likely very perceptive, and skilled at picking up on body language and other non-verbal cues. Like other youngest children, you tend to be outgoing, active and optimistic. You are probably excitable by nature and radiate confidence and happiness. As a rule, it is usually not difficult for you to make friends wherever you go.

Birth order influences your relationship with your parents, siblings (if you have them) and how you ultimately learn to interact with the world. It can provide an insightful way to better understand your approach to friendships, romance, and how you meet life's challenges.

todae had the lecture on my specializations...
here are my choices: 1: Digital film and media studies
2: ANimatioN!
3: games design
4: interactive media

its in order....i guess my first aim in games design got shaken in the amt of work and experiences tt i had.......kinda hard lar...i waz surprised to find myself liking animation and film...as in i juz enjoyed wat i learned...the work i did....quite happy and all.....and animation is like one of the most work tt has to be done module....wat is a slacker like me doin in a module liddat?? worse still...i LIKE it.........hahaha......ah well...juz hope i get into film....onlie 1 class catering to 20 students....like wat the fark? and give excuses like insufficient equipment or "catering to market demand"....bunch of bulll..........

"the characteristic of a genuine heroism is its persistency. All men have wandering impulses, fits and starts of generosity. But when you have resolved to be great, abide by yourself with the world. The heroic cannot be the common, nor the common the heroic"




Your addicted to.....

Alcohol!
Mmmmmmm, Mmmmmm, Bitch! I like you, alcohol is one
of the better things to be addicted to. The
only bad part is it makes you feel like doing
nothing and the next morning you get a terrible
hangover.


What are you addicted to? (pics!)
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its back to the "y does todae pass so damn slowly" period again....a period where everything i do is juz bland and plain with no touch of colour watsoeva...be it games or work.....juz feel like shutting myself of this world and juz stare blankly at my own lime green walls of my room....yEs ppl...i like green...hax
i am starting to get rather detached frm my frens so i figured...mabbie its juz me...juz sumhw realised tt i dun reallie know my frens as well...dun even noe what a "fren" means....to me...all my "frens" are juz mere acquaintances whom i see everydae...passing faces tt fade in whenever there is an event and then juz leave all together when the podium is being dismantled....closeness is like the gust of wind...sudden, cooling and fast...too fast to even hold on to...tok abt warmth...haha
mabbie its coz i nv reallie belonged to a single grp....though there is one in existance....i juz feel tt its a cold and furnitureless room tt we all juz gather in there for the sick of "attendence" and "face".....yes...it sure is hell fun being with them but after u leave...u juz hav forlorn feeling inside u tt leaves u wanting more?
seeing my cuzzins for after so long juz brings a smile to my face...both sides i mean....ytd and todae...i am glad tt my entire family is pretty close together....wouldnt want to know or experience wat a broken family with this uncle hating tt uncle and all tt be..........sad....

hw true...hw true....

ENTP - "Inventor". Enthusiastic interest in everything and always sensitive to possibilities. Non-conformist and innovative. 3.2% of the total population.

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passion of christ touched me like no other medium of the christian world ever did....juz reflecting and remembering the crucification scene....broke down juz nw....cldnt help it actually.....everytime the hammer fell on the nail...i waz flinching inside....i remembered clenching and unclenching my fist...as if it waz in terrible pain...but wat broken my resolve waz the nail thru his soles.........my defense and distance against the whole christian idea juz crumbled.....juz walking out of tt cinema and looking at all the ppl arund me....the ignorant grp of ppl....juz thought in my head "and jesus actually died for all these ppl including me"......i dunno...nv felt anithing like this.....shall go ponder.......and pray...



You are a forest shadow. Your essence is that of
the tree or beast that casts you upon the
earth. You feel a purpose to be in balance
with the cycles of life and are wise and
beautiful in your submission to the justice of
Mother Nature. You are peaceful in nature and,
though you feel small, your spirit is precious,
strong, and mighty as the (green)forces with
which it is affiliated. (please rate my quiz
cuz it took me for freaking ever to create)


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