i just realised i cant make people laugh animore...i cant relate to ppl animore..i cant do anithing...left out? maybe...it isnt easy when u think u noe ppl but in the end u find out ya nt part of the inner "grp"....maybe its me..or them...i dun noe...frankly i dun reallie care now...given up trying i have....mabbie i shld just stop being friendly..stop talking to others..stop being me? hmm..cld tt work? just seat at the corner and get out when its over.....
Ying was right...i am glad we had tt conversation...thnx gal! (if ya reading this)...its nice to hear advice from sumone whu has so much experience...jus gives me a clearer picture of wat is goin on or making sense of wat i am doin...nt just mindlessly giving and never receiving....time would tell...i am an impaitient man by nature...and i am giving it the best i can....guess i hafta try harder?
y do ppl tell each other their flaw0s..but end up doin nuthing abt them? lamenting and complaining but nt helping themselves or for others?

like wat my camp instructor said: What for focus all your energy on brushing up your flaws when u cld devote more time to ur strengths??"

troubles~ troubles~ troubles~

hmm..feeling tired after soccer...todae is jus shagged dae...dunno y...sighz.....its been bout a wk since the incident happened...understanding as i may be..my fortitute might be runnning out after so long...but i will try..cos its in my very nature to try..i will give time...but i do hope my waiting will not be in vain...for i too have my own demons and voices to fight against from goin mad with crazy thoughts..bad thoughts....
so please hurry........

well...ogl reallie opened up my social circle i must sae...goin to sch nw isnt such a bore it used to be! haha...having fun but sian at the same time? kinda contradictary no?
bunch of designers working together...makes pretty gd results i sae! haha...work together we have...spirit and in body will we pull this through...
OC was nice...finally...marissa and ryan got together...:)
1 mth...been pretty short but gd..continue i will..for stronger it will grow to be...

i got 2 fcking huge blisters on my both soles, my right big toe is in pain again..(old injury) and i hav a slightly twisted left ankle...the cause? playing barefoot on basketball court...-_-

i never knew missing sumone cld be so painful...it gnaws at u...ur very drug tt u cling on so desperately when its around is gone...its as if everything suddenly has no meaning no more...the stuff u do on the com is distasteful..the ppl u hang out with just leaves u feeling disgusted...its like a veil has been put over ur face..shielding u from all things colourful...as i lie on bed tossing and turning...yearning for the very essence and body of the person..it grates my nerves to know i cant see her..cant touch her..cant even see her...knowledge isnt power....its a sharp jabbing reminder to the heart of the reality...


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ahhh....nv realised the bed waz so soft till ytd...haha...
reached home after OGL camp and immediately slept from 3 to 9 this morning...
well..the camp waz a blast! crazy but good games were played, tensions were raised but everyone went home feeling happy and fun...ha..nv knew being an OGL waz so much fun...active in sch i will be..;)
ah yea! results are out! i got into film! heh...so happy i shouted out at the notice board..lol
well..its been a long time since i seen my peeps...and my gal...time to do sum catching up...


Magister Mundi sum!
"I am the Master of the Universe!"
You are full of yourself, but you're so cool you
probably deserve to be. Rock on.


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Fear less, hope more,
>eat less, chew more,
>whine less, breathe more,
>talk less, say more,
>love more,
>and all good things
>will be yours.
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>- Swedish Proverb