well..a week has past.Today's class was different. We learnt acting. And not just norm acting, but acting from the grand mastro himself Lim Yu Beng! yea..pretty kewl chap with a hearty laugh and a american accent with singaporean twangled inbetween..lol..Acting is..kinda fun i guess? being able to bring out emotions and potray them in ur own individualistic way that no one can ever replicate.

But if u ask me? i feel that acting, though artistic, is a huge lie. Actors are just fake personas that just bluff out their scenes. Most of them would never experienced what they are acting maybe for 5 lifetimes! haha...in turn, the audience gets misled by the real thing and then relate to: "we can nv understand them!" e.g..psychos, murderers etc...shame though...it was great fun having acting class! maybe i wld sign up and discover what is true acting!

past week has been crap. Suddenly realised i am not the "listener" i used to be. Forgetting people, the things that are impt to them, even neglacting resposibilities i have to uphold and do. Pretty fucked u might say...plus all the work i have to hand up TML, THE NEXT DAY, AND THE NeXT neXT DAY. This 3 days is gonna be a pretty rough ride. I am getting close to breaking point, and i havent even started!
*augish wail*

Just wanna lie down on a nice British grassy field and look into the endless cloudy infinite sky. (yes they do have it there and its FUCKING nice...the particular field that i lied on was at Shakespeare's cottage.) oh yes...Rach must be beside me too! hehx..

I received a sms today..it goes like this..
we clap our hands
and love alvin
we clap our hands
and love alvin
love, love, love,
love...Alvin!
love, love, love,
love...Alvin!


haha...thnx darl..tt basically lit up my face like a dang christmas tree...lolx..
and a tribute to Dion Xu kexin..whu forever immortalized the "hopping" song..cheers!
wat ya say YEP thailand peeps?

Why do i feel like a fool? That feeling of feeling extremely stupid and unappreciated comes to mind. Maybe its just one time or forgiveble. I do forgive. But why do i mind the matter so much? I guess its cos i put in so much effort in that 1 gift that i have never made for anyone in my 18 years of life. And what do i get in return? A choice of random gifts that were obviously meant for other people.

So tell me? is it wrong to feel like crap? i think not.