Key issues: Creatively expressing feeling, empathy, and imagination; experiencing oneness and interconnectedness without losing personal identity.

Key qualities: fluid, malleable, receptive, all-inclusive sympathy.

Your nonjudgemental, all-inclusive, sympathetic understanding of others is one of your primary gifts to the world. Your ability to listen and to uncritically accept draws others to you. You are attracted to or identified with the underdogs, the rejects or broken ones, those who are in need. Easily moved by emotion and pity, you have few rigid rules, boundaries, or absolutes. At times, and especially while young, you may have a weak or confused sense of self, as you absorb others' energies quite easily. You shift chameleon-like, according to your company and surroundings, and a place to withdraw to protect yourself from being overwhelmed by more dominating energies is necessary for you from time to time. Because of your fluid sense of self, you may enjoy trying on or shifting your persona, playing out different parts at different parts times, and not fully identifying yourself with any of them. You naturally possess a certain detachment from the small, narrow ego-self and much of the competitiveness and pettiness in the world which is based on it.

hmm. Its funny that a whole paragraph can say so much bout a person. Words can be powerful.

"i love you as a friend".

Jubilation yet anguish breeched the floodgates and bursted the dam. I am happy for the friendship but sad for the courtship.
But like you said. Its a point that we, or rather me, had to cross. Well it isnt so bad. At least i can look at you with a clear mind now.

Well met the malay dudes 2 nights back. After having dinner and taking photographs for the Ecity compeition, i headed back with Erwan being him staying at braddell and me at toa payoh. We had a 1hr half+ talk? Not that we are gaying or anything. lol.
But somehow i have the feeling that i will be attending this dude's wedding and through him the other malay dudes. Maybe its because we see things on the same lvl and angles. Its nice to know i have a good friend in poly. Most i know are aquiantances and are still am. Pretty sad.

Talking to him sure got me in touch with what is happening in sch. Interesting to know how many of my friends are going through a tough time now. It should all be over in 2 weeks i guess for them. haha being at work really cuts you off from everything else. Suddenly my classmates seem as far away as the chicks and dudes i meet at clubbing.

As much as i want to help, i realised i can't. People might see it as i am intruding their group space or being nosey. It saddening to see help being "seen" by this way. So i concluded. Why help when it is not needed? Maybe thats the best policy i should adapt.

It sure is amusing to know that petty differences and out right displeasure is still being shown. Amusing as we being adults should know better. Maybe some people just cant grow up.

I kept my distance. Like i chose to work with you. We drew lots. It was fair. Frankly, i just did my job and shut the hell up when it was your turn. So why are you still giving me that fucked up "i am friendly with you" and "i hate you when i am not around" attitude? well. FUCK u. I will show my displeasure, but i will not go all out to face your displeasure. Frankly, i know i am vocal and wont just sit there and face such attitude. *It seems we are different on this erwan. LOL.*

My dad always tells me. Never make enemies. For you dont know when he might be your boss. And he did give me a few examples he came across. ANd i am talking about CEO positions and shit like that. As much as i find this true, i cant change the fact on how other people think abt me now can i? Everyone has "i am like this. Its either you can stand it or not" in a freaking group. What the fuck happened to words like "compromise" or "adaptability"????

Hell, thats wat 1/4 of my class is made of. ANd dont tell me it aint true. Because it is.

A late night was spent on the bed. Corinne May was the only company followed by the bolster. The mood was set after spending 2 hrs on the phone. Time passes very fast when enjoyable conversations are being held. But when even the "best friend" is unsure. It suddenly becomes a whole new lvl.

He becomes doubtful, tries to squash the feelings that he always knew were wrong. It usually tears him inside out but still shoulders on due to his commitment to another close one. He doesnt know whether to allow the manifestation to multiply or simply strive to quell it.

All he knows is that his heart is not follow his head. Some say choose one. But what if both are equally painful. Is he just meant to go through this?

Equally confusing is the fact that he feels different this time. With all his past experiences and encounters, this time round is entirely unique. He welcomes change but yet feel weird abt change. Is it good? or bad?

But he knows one thing. That his thirst of companionship is being quenched. Its only the matter of the uncertainty and the fear of the "other side" which leaves him thinking: Is this spring truly going to stay or is it just a aphrodisiac?