Looking at Team Singapore soccer is infuriating. Really. Dont get me wrong! I mean i DO support them. Like whenever a chance comes and i will be all hopeful and full of hype in the anticipation of the goal that they wld/or not score. But seriously. You can just turn the air blue jus by commentating. And Raddy abrahnovic sure did turn the air blue at Phillipines. Just hearing him shout the whole match. lol. I think I wld have shouted as much as he did. Who the hell has a non-existing midfield. 2 wingers that are so deep in - always waiting for the center midfield to pump LONG balls to them EVERY attack. The strikers are no doubt the same.

Result? Defence backpedals faster then a camel can and usually are caught exposed as if they werent "awake" enough. And they arent exactly very good to began with in the first place. Wait. Who am i to judge them in the first place u say. "If ya so good then why arent u in the team!".

The point is. Even the coach knows of problems like these. he knows they are prone to jus collapsing just like that. They havent exactly bonded well. Unlike the 1994-5 team led by Fandi Ahmed and co. Shld we hav high hopes for 2005 sea games? I think not.

Pity though. I certainly was rooting or hoping for them to go far. For i guess i am a patriot by heart. And which boy doesnt dream of representing his country in anything he does? :p

I am apologetic in nature. Its weird. Ppl say i take advantage of ppl. But yet i want the best for ppl in the expense of my own. So i ask myself. What do i want? I can be selfish yet selfless. I can spare a thought for others but turn my back just as soon as i dont see deem fit. I do try to be the better person. Constantly checking myself and reminding myself in CAPS. "STOP THAT". "DO IT THE OTHER WAY". "THINK ABOUT THEM".

Is this self-improvement?