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hmm...damn! i juz realise i forgot to watch american Idol........suxs......
death....is it tt blurred as an illusion? too many times hav we toked abt death as if its a piece of chicken on the plate....too mani times hav we joked abt death like sum bar joke.....y do we even show such apathy towards such a powerful method of "population checking" created by god? shldnt it be embrace with compassion and feaR? yea sure...sum of us wld go "i aint afraid of death...if it comes then lidat lor..." lolx...as simple-minded fools which they are...(i am one of them) they will soon realise tt deep down.......EVERYONE fears death.....be it unable able to do the things u liked animore...or lost of love-ones or juz simply thinking tt "its nt my turn! i am so young! take tt old guy with the terminal illness nxt to me or tt lady with cancer........." it sure is laughable tt ppl speculate abt "after-death"...once ya gone means ya gone...another being wld take ur place in the ever circle of life...y bother abt all the thinking abt goin to hell or heaven...reincarnation?? its juz another way of man's big bag of excuses or lies to explain the unexplainables..............sum even claim to hav come back frm death.....seeing the bright light and all?? i do hav sum skeptism against such ppl actually....i dunno..call it cynical or hard-hearted....i wld hav to experience it to noe it is true i guess....

well my grp of frens look at death with almost frustrating indifference....too much influence of games?? tv? movies? where everything is soften and nicely done.....
either the bloody martians are laughing at us in all our barbaric boor (man killing man) or god is grieving upstairs in his throne noeing tt he cant juz wipe us off and create a new "earth" cos he apparently believes we can be saved.....can we? sure...miracles and all tt stuffs' been done...but i hav yet to seen god in his full glory or splendour doin sumthing or saving sumbody....hw are we gonna believe if all we hav is juz literature and self-imagination? ppl are convinced when they pray and apparently their life gets much betta.....coincidence? or juz fate? frankly...i believe tt religion is juz another way of "hope" tt the machines cld nv beat...(think matrix)

phew...its a pretty long entry of crap i reckon....mabbie its the songs tonite tts setting me in the mood....poofs......