its a wonder what 3 weeks can do to u. (What abt 4 mths eh chia ehrn?)

u feel out-sync with the people here.

Everything feels either too expensive or gives a rip-off feeling.

You don't feel the way least charitable now u know there are worst off people then even singapore's misfortunate.

Everybody is just busy looking at new clothes or having a new makeover.

Worst off, u find urself wanting to go back.

Blue city? try reality check...

"Be thankful for what you have lest you could be borned without them"
Alvin Foong

i realised i am a grey person..i do not have any persona watsoever, my life is a dull piece of b/w painting that is done on cheap newsprint. The same HB pencil that started shading 18 years ago is still shading and will continue shading till either the canvas is full or it just runs out of lead. Its hard to see the future as even the present looks bleak with more b/w events to come. Is it tt hard to add colour?
All i see myself doing week after week is just a same mould...the same "weekly" events that paste itself over and over again..i am crying out for sumthing new! I know i must go and get it myself. But the trouble is...i just dun haf the willingness to!
I do have a bright purple crayon by my side. But i just dunch know how to use it! call me stupid..or wateva~ Maybe i am just too stubborn to learn new things but its just that whenever i wanna do sumting, i just lack the heart to continue it! Could the purple crayon help? Its been helping but i am very afraid it might run thin...

I need entertainment in my life. Having a "working com" only with no watsoever games isnt helping at home. I am sick and tired of my com breaking down on me. I am sick of being cashless. I am bored of home, i am bored of town, i am bored of going out to the same places and doing the same things week after week. Blogging aint gonna help but i guess its the only avenue. Even sch which is reopening tml dont appeal anymore. I think i am going thru a phase that i might shun everything and just rot at home. I desire nothing less then...well..interest?

Fuck it. Lets go rob a bank.

mm..past 3 weeks has been a twirl..Losing track of time as a result of a "no-batt" watch on day 1..lolx..am at darl's hse now to bring her to see the docs..poor lass is still sick from thailand..shall blog abt thailand tonight..dun feel "writish" now..heh..a new change! sumthing more simple...less girly..haha! though hard to see...

if we dream the invisible..we can DO the impossible...

well..these days are just filled with boredom..even the mere task of blogging needs lots of persuasion from oneself...i need a new life. i need new people. i need a new country. yes i do dream of New Zealand where the hobbits roam with the sheep and the Ents do white water roughing...i do long for the fresh air that a mountain can only have..Korea was not good enough....An asian mountain will not do! A european one...Ah..now we are talking..lol...haha nt bias but its just all that rich history behind them...u see the differencE??
well..i will be leaving on wed..for 3 weeks..wont expect anione to miss me though...

Its been difficult to lets say...keep a fire going? u can never complete effectively shield a OPEN fire nw can u? even if u keep adding wood candles and starters...the wind just leaks thru and starts blowing at it..it may come suddenly, or it comes gradually..but the flame will and would be blown out. maybe moderation would do the trick...a little wood at a time..but slowly increasing with duration...strong perodic waves of the paper plate would do gd too...

i am sorry for not being *sparkling* flame u wished for..


Your element is earth: Wise, solitary, mysterious
and loving. You are very wise. Your wise as in
you know things others do not, you can see past
stereotypes and see the real people behind
their facades, and people will often come to
you for help and advice. Quite solitary and
somewhat shy around people because you prefer
animals and plants, animals aren't afraid to
show themselves or what they are feeling and
plants are fun to nurture. You are very strong
in your silence if you set your mind on
something you will often times pursue it to the
end. Sometimes you just want to get away, so
you seek refuge in the forest where you can
have time to think and try to sort out your
emotions. The sound of the wind usually calms
you, especially moving through the trees. Life
to you is something precious and should not be
taken for granted.


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Well..dust really seemed to have settled on every square inch of this blog hasnt it..well..i guess i just seem to have gone of the unbeaten track to do other things rather then mundane task. haha..yes people, i am goin to thailand for a YEP trip..It means = CIP lolx...3 wks in all..hmm..planning aint going that smoothly though, due to the muddled-head teacher in charge and a all-too-slow assistant teacher..haha..shant be that bad..but they are nice people..we shall see..
situation there sure is getting out of hand eh? i must remember to "duck" over there...anything loud happens? i just lie straight down..being so tall and all..*shakes head*

To address the issue or problem with moi darlink told me not to(:P), i decided that i really want to make this work! i have never been so happy in my life! and i am not just going to give it up just lidat. An active participant i shall be for ur life and i hope it would be vice versa..;)

~When one's computer is down, u just run out of things to do~
Alvin Foong

There can only be one way. Irregardless of the shortcomings and idealogies of a incredible amount of people-generators. Single-serving friends this people are. For to achieve that singleway of doing it is a sole job. No amount of assistance will enable the prioperiator to do the job that can be only finished by himself, oneself and no one else.
the task at hand, ladies and gentlemen, is not about doing it nor is it about thinking about doing it. Whereas,
completion is what the true meaning is about. The way it is executed, the way about howit is done. These factors can never be emulated by anione else as the doer always has his own flair of gutting the fish.
weird...and u thought i would be thinking of spending time with my girlfriend....

after a long absence...i think its only appropriate...I AM BACK! hax...pardon me if wat u keep seeing was the same ol` msg over and over again.. Been jus too busy finishing up assignments and all? BUt partly too cos my com was down, fixed and having trouble AGAIN...sighz...am i relegated to only win98?? lol...
Few people i want to thank for the past 2 wks...

No.1 THe PrESident of KOREa!!! (cat high boys wld noe..;)) TT fat shit has been helping me so much...gosh...gotta go over and eat kim chi alreadi man...i owe u fat ooi....really...really thank you!

No.2 DARlinK! thnx for being there? guess i can get really pissy when i am tired..u now noe y they say couples cant work together...hahah...but hey! we managed to pull it off! hax...and dun worrie bout the web...at least a B lar ya?? :)

Goin out with moi DarLink tml...i have no idea why i am still not slping...maybe cos its been so long since i have gone out with her only...sighz...maybe SCDS might be of help? hahaha...

well..studio proj starting tml...its gonna be hell man..at least i got my 2 kopitiam chairs from Ji xing's mum...hey shin~ help me say thnx again! shall collect it sumtime nxt wk?? ya... i hafta build a 1940s era living room set..or just an old living room wld suffice....would any of u guys have anithing tt i cld borrow?? i just need it for 1 day..everything would be returned in pristine condition...msg me on the tag board if u cld help me? thnx....

shant talk more..lest i cant wake up tml...

oh ya..warhammer3000 is one heck of a kewl game!

up to my ears with work! Having to go for shoots and piaing work at night...Trying to cut down on games now...*slapping oneself*

u just feel so tired all of a sudden. Everything dies along with u. There is no more wind. Sound is nonexistant. Even what you see starts to be something else. You know you need rest but the nagging deadline just pounds your will to submission. So you just slump in your chair, working aimlessly with no electrons flowing through whatsoever in your brain. You just want to close your eyes and dream of the most beautiful things that your mind can only dream of while slping. How you long for something so essential as sleep but yet always rejecting it in the face of greater things.

We are slaves to work.

have u ever got the feeling of being 1 fucked up idiot?? well...i had tt feeling a few days back...i lost my soccer shoes guys..including bag...left it on the bus...........it was the classic moment of realising u left sumthing on the bus after it left...after frantic asking of num frm the other bus driver(almost made him crash into a cab cos he was talking to me and the bus just drifted off into another lane) and 1230am calling of centers...OBVIOUSLY noone gave it in to the centers.....i am sad...really sad........

the last final super weightage uber important cant stress enough work is finally here..no more "rest" animore..gotta get 'em brain juices working again no doubt..

Realised i am attached for 3 mths..HaHa..suprised? nah...elation comes to mind..Oh~ happy day ~ oh happy day ~


The Lost Soul


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